DARKNESS

DARKNESS

One Night I went to bed and it was dark..
Darkness surrounds me, it’s everywhere
Trying to get a hold of me w/ its cold embrace
It’s so easy to succumb to its lulling song:

“Are you tired of fighting, is your heart aching..
Sleep … do rest…you deserve it”

My eyes are heavy, soul is empty
It is calling me, darkness beckons me..

“Give up…hate them…forget them…”

Tears welled-up in my eyes and I felt hatred sprung within me…

Then all of a sudden I’ve heard something..
A whisper so soft as if it’s only a wind:
Child…..child…..my sweetest child…

I open my swollen eyes and saw a glimmer of light,
I looked back at the retreating darkness, saw its greedy eyes
Its snarling mouth tinge with lust and blood..
“Later” it mouthed silently..and hid under the bed,
Inside the closet, deep in my subconciousness.

I listened with my eyes closed, bleeding heart wide open
But the voice was gone, or is it only my imagination?
I lit a candle and said a prayer..

Lord, please hear me…

Life is hard..
People hurt me,
Loved ones disappoints me..
Friends used me to their own gain..
Material things sets me in bondage..
I toil, I sweat, I worked hard..
In order to survive..
But it’s not always enough..
The society shuns me..
Because of my mediocrity

But in spite of these…I believe that
There is something for me..
There is a place for me..
Where I can lie down in a field of green grass
And look at the sky so blue and cloudless
Trees swaying with the breeze in harmony
Basking in YOUR warm embrace…
Whispering in my ears that YOU Love me..

Until then my Lord will YOU lead me?
Will YOU touch my broken heart and heal it
Will YOU give me more strength to fight the battle?
To love unconditionally,
Without asking & expecting anything in return


With YOUR blessing LORD, will you set me free..
From the bondage of material things?
Will you help me to accept that I am not a superhuman,
That I will just let you handle sensitive and difficult situation?
Give me humble heart so I may accept that I am a failure without YOU?


I finished my prayer with thankfulness and there was peace in my heart.
I closed my eyes and succumbed into the oblivion of blessed sleep.

I had a dream..

I dreamt of darkness, screaming in frustration…Fool…..fool!!!!..it says…
And it left grumbling and whining, I closed the door and hit him in the butt.


/pam 010807