Sunday, November 20, 2011

CROSSROADS


A couple of days ago...I faced a crossroad.
There I was standing at the falling Rain
Facing the forks on the road.....
To my left here is this life that is easy and safe
Where I will live my dreams..
and to my right, a life that is rough and unstable
It was the hardest decision I ever made 
But I did it..


I wish I had a formula to calculate the sum
I wish I am a fortune teller, so I will know the future
But I only have my heart to guide me and nothing else.
So I chose the rough and unstable road..


I already started feeling the rocks beneath my feet
Feeling the hot rays of the sun and the cold blowing of the wind.
I can feel my heart beat the extra beat..the unhealed wound starts to bleed again.
My tears started falling until I am almost blinded by them..


Then I heard your call...
That familiar sound like music to my ears....
You met me halfway and the moment I smelled you, I was home.
It hit me then....YOU never left...you never gave up, good and bad.


I looked back the at road on my left...it was beautiful...
I saw him standing there where he stood...didn't moved at all
In his eyes I was a failure..I failed him..I am not up to par.
I was not perfect so he gave up....


And I smiled...I am glad I followed my heart.

created by: Rain

Friday, October 21, 2011

Wanna share my umbrella?


I read one of Holly's thoughts today and I was inspired to write this:

Rain..O blessed Rain…
It refreshes our soul, it washes away our tears.
It reminds us of home when it’s too cold to play outside
It reminds us of hot cocoa and pajamas and warm blankets
But there are times it reminds you how solitary you are..
Looking out the window, watching people go by …
Sometimes alone…sometimes two emerged under one umbrella
There will be a point you will get out of your safe haven and brave the
Storm, walk in the cold, wind blowing your face…getting soaked to the skin. Then you will realized None of us meant to walk through the rain alone.
Who shares your umbrella? Who shares the storms in your life?
Thanks for sharing mine--I'm so glad you're here!

RAIN

 

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

I'd rather....

I'd rather be with you but you left me no choice..
It is you who I wanna be with for the rest of my life
but I can not go that same road again with you..
It is your smell that I miss, it is your touch I remember
It is your laughter I want to hear, it is your smile I want to see..
One day you will remember and you feel bad that once,
you were holding something good in your hands and you let it go!

Friday, September 9, 2011

Ginataang Santol Recipe

 GINATAANG SANTOL
created by: Rain


This Recipe was handed down to me by a Bicolana friend, Manay Lina way back when I still in Subic Bay, Philippines circa 1990's. I was skeptical at first because the Santol fruits was eaten by us raw pairing it with salt or sauteed Shrimp paste. After tasting this delicacy I was hooked and became one of my favorite side dish.  This is pretty good served with Fried fish.

Here's What you need:
4 to 5 lbs of Santol ( I bought mine frozen from Seafood City
2 Coconut milk in can
1 Coconut cream
1 lb pork belly (diced)
Shrimp Paste 
Siling Haba or JalapeƱos ( I used red pepper since it was the only pepper at hand)
Minced Garlic
Sliced Onion


Procedure

Peel santol. Cut in halves, remove the seeds and set aside. Dice pulp. Sprinkle about 1/2 teaspoon salt over the diced santol, mix then pick up handfuls of the diced pulp and squeeze to remove some of the juice.

In a deep pan combine pork, coconut milk, shrimp paste, onions and garlic, stirring every now and then to avoid curdling. When the mixture boils, add in santol and correct saltiness, add salt or more shrimp paste as needed. Continue stirring slowly until the mixture boils until the liquid was reduced in half. Add in the pepper and let the mix simmer until the coco milk is thick and the oil started to appear.

Served hot or cold with Steamed white rice and Fried Fish.


I love....

I love knowing you were always there.
I love the feeling of security, that I am not alone.
I love the stupid fights that either made us shut up until next time or somehow made us stronger.
I love holding your calloused hands, it shows you are a man.
I love you holding back, I love you not holding back.
I love your scruff and always being amazed that I walked away without severe beard-burn.
I love those nights when we didn't want to stop being with each other.
I even love getting so pissed at something you would say or do and trying to deal with it on my own until you made me 'fess up.
I love surprising you.
I love being surprised by the glimpses of your sensitive side every now and then.
I love the look you'd get when I'd touch your cheek and smile at you.
I love how you thought you were so stealth with your mood changes when you really can't hide them from me.
I love all your flaws, it makes you special.
Thank you for being who you are.
Thank you for accepting who I am.
Thank you for staying.

Monday, September 5, 2011

THANK YOU

Thank you for listening ,

Thank you for hearing me.
Thank you for saying "I Love You"
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for the embrace
Thank you for hugging me
Thank you for your gratitude
Thank you for thanking me
Thank you for being there
Thank you for helping me
Thank you for breaking my heart
Thank you for leaving me
Thank you for the pains
Thank you for hurting me
Thank you for making me strong
Thank you for everything you did for me
Now I thank you for having a strong, strong heart.



(Inspired by the Song from Sinead O'Connor - Thank your for hearing me) 

created by:Rain



Tuesday, August 30, 2011

HOW DO YOU EAT YOUR OREO COOKIES?


 How do you eat your Oreo cookies? It's funny that different people eats it in different ways..please read on!!

Oreo Personality Test

Psychologists have discovered that the manner in which people eat Oreo cookies provides great insight into their personalities. Choose which method best describes your favorite method of eating Oreos:
1. The whole thing all at once.
2. One bite at a time
3. Slow and methodical nibbles examining the results of each bite afterwards.
4. In little feverish nibbles.
5. Dunked in some liquid (milk, coffee...).
6. Twisted apart, the inside, then the cookie.
7. Twisted apart, the inside, and toss the cookie.
8. Just the cookie, not the inside.
9. I just like to lick them, not eat them.
10. I don't have a favorite way because I don't like Oreo.


Your Personality:

1. The whole thing.
This means you consume life with abandon, you are fun to be with, exciting, carefree with some hint of recklessness. You are totally irresponsible. No one should trust you with their children.
2. One bite at a time.
You are lucky to be one of the 5.4 billion other people who eat their Oreos this very same way. Just like them, you lack imagination, but that's okay, not to worry, you're normal.
3. Slow and Methodical.
You follow the rules. You're very tidy and orderly. You're very meticulous in every detail with every thing you do to the point of being anal retentive and irritating to others. Stay out of the fast lane if you're only going to go the speed limit.
4. Feverish Nibbles.
Your boss likes you because you get your work done quickly. You always have a million things to do and never enough time to do them. Mental breakdowns and suicides run in your family. Valium and Ritalin would do you good.
5. Dunked.
Every one likes you because you are always up beat. You like to sugar coat unpleasant experiences and rationalize bad situations into good ones. You are in total denial about the shambles you call a life. You have a propensity towards narcotic addiction.
6. Twisted apart, the inside, and then the cookie.
You have a highly curious nature. You take pleasure in breaking things apart to find out how they work, though not always able to put them back together, so you destroy all the evidence of your activities. You deny your involvement when things go wrong. You are a compulsive liar and exhibit deviant, if not criminal, behavior.
7. Twisted apart, the inside, and then toss the cookie.
You are good at business and take risk that pay off. You take what you want and throw the rest away. You are greedy, selfish, mean, and lack feelings for others. You should be ashamed of yourself. But that's ok, you don't care, you got yours.
8. Just the cookie, not the inside.
You enjoy pain.
9. I just like to lick them, not eat them
Stay away from small furry animals and seek professional medical help - immediately.
10. I don't have a favorite way, I don't like Oreo cookies.
You probably come from a rich family, and like to wear nice things, and go to up-scale restaurants. You are particular and fussy about the things you buy, own, and wear. Things have to be just right. You like to be pampered. You are a prima donna. There's just no pleasing you.



Rain






Friday, August 26, 2011

DO NOT STAND AT MY GRAVE AND WEEP

by Pam Enriquez Palad on Sunday, August 24, 2008 at 12:05am
I am listening to Libera tonight and I’ve heard this song for the first time, just the title itself touched me deeply…it inspired me to compose a poem with the same title.  Do not get alarmed though ha-ha-ha..I am in the best of everything, I just love writing morbid thoughts as my way of extracting negativity from the inside out…here goes:


DO NOT STAND IN MY GRAVE AND WEEP
by☂♥Rain♥☂
082308 @ 11:43PM


God gave you life go and celebrate it..
God gave you health do not waste it.
Smile and face the world, shoulder straight,
Your castle is there, your dreams await..


Sing no sad song for me, I won’t hear the melodies
But rather dance, be happy coz no more agonies…
All was left of me are the memories….
pick the good ones, not those tinge with worries.


Plant no flowers in my grave, it’s useless…
Their beauty I won’t see, the smell I won’t care less.
But I ask you to plant me a big, big tree..
Branches reaching to the heavens, leaves swaying free..


Do not stand at my grave and weep..
Go home, get dressed and pray before you sleep.
because tomorrow is another day, my sweet..
Maybe it would be the day that you and I again shall meet.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

RAIN Forest

My Plantation at the Office

When did I started loving plants and trees? I don't really remember but as a child I am at my happiest when I am up a tree any fruit bearing trees (or not) and reading a book. Being in family of Six children, I didn't really had the privacy. The little monkeys oops my siblings are noisy and crazy, snot in their nose and smelly soiled diapers so up the tree I goes (well I am a monkey too, I guess).  How many times my parents reminded me that I was a girl and girls don't climb trees wearing dresses and showing their knickers but boy did I ever listen?

Okay back to loving the plants (and Trees)....
I love their fruits...I love them as foods..I even like them as decorations
But that's not LOVE..just a necessity. 

Until I met Claire Hatab, the wife of Doctor Hatab my boss.  I used to work in a Medical Office when I was in Tennessee as their office manager. Claire love plants and flowers our office looks more like a garden than a clinic or medical office. Our patients really admire them. Anyhoo, Claire told me one day that I will take care of these plants (one of my duties and responsibilities) I don't know anything about Medicine, Patients, Diseases and  of course PLANTS! ask me again why I work there? I needed the change..I needed the excitement of learning new stuff. So......back to plants...On the first day I was left alone with them, I had a heart to heart talk to the plants (I felt stupid) knowing that they will not understand, so most probably I was talking only to myself.

"Plants...pretty and beautiful plants, listen to me! I am your new MOM...I will be the one taking care of you guys from now on so you better not die on me or my boss will fire me..when I told you to drink water...you drink water..and grow and flower..whatever you guys do..DON"T DIE!!!, okay" I told them.

I looked at them waiting for the scream................Silence.

Days passed, then weeks..I am learning medicine as if I was born to do it..my boss noticed my knack of remembering all the medical terms he taught me, my superb organizational skill and of course my charm of making our old patients smile and chit-chat with me.

Then one day I looked up and noticed the vine nearer to me..and for some reason I can feel it...as if it's watching me I looked at all the plants and all the leaves are all leaning and growing towards me...scary right? YOU BET your ass it was scary! But they are just plants, innocent looking plants...something in my heart made me realized as stupid and slow as I am..THEY ARE ALIVE!, they can hear me..notice me..being there with me..loving me..I can't hear them talk like pets..but in their own little ways I know they love me by being beautiful and thriving..one day my Boss's wife came down to visit bringing me some goodies and she was surprised how her plants have grown..she said: "You have a green thumb"

From then on, I fell crazily and irrevocably in love with plants (and Trees). wherever I go I always have plants surrounding me..I can't live without them..my cubicle in the office looks like a farm and everybody was amazed how can I possibly have this plants as green as this in not so perfect environment for them..I told them LOVE is enough  (and water and some vitamins, of course).

Oh...I am not working at the Medical office anymore though the Doctor and his wife are still my friends now. I may be good with documentation but I am not a "patient person" I failed the number one rule in healthcare and medical business:

  • Thou shall not get too close and get attached with thy patients. 
One of my fave patient died and it broke my heart.

I just love plants............ ( and Trees...PaLmtrees especially)


created by: Rain


Tuesday, August 23, 2011

FRIENDSHIP


Seeing you,
Seeing her,

Seeing us...

I can still see me and you growing old together
but she deserves to be happy more than I do
So I will fold and let her lead you home...

wishing that she will love you as I do,
That she would patch your broken heart...
and make you happy finally, then I'll be happy too!


I can see you hesitating, looking my way..
I smiled at you in my heart wanting you to stay.
Then I saw her looking at you with love in her gaze.
So I broke the spell and brushed the tears from my eyes.
Smile on my lips told you my goodbyes..
Laying my cards on the table facing down.
Friendship won, and I have lost..
The Love, I love the most.


....Uprooting my namesake trees.



created by:  Rain



Friday, August 5, 2011

TUMBLEWEEDS



Roll Tumbleweeds, roll
What are you running away for?
Are you leaving what you called home...
To meet you lover's beck & call?

You keep on tumbling along..
where the winds of human foibles blows.
Run away my dear Tumbleweeds...
Along the way plant your tumbleseeds!

  

created by: Rain

Thursday, July 21, 2011

WHAT IS YOUR DEFINITION OF SEXY?


A Man's point of view....
by: Rain

I've asked some of my friends and acquaintances to define what is sexy to them as I always wanted to write a series of interviews on a man's point of view...we always think that men always look at the physical attribute of a woman to be sexy but I am genuinely surprised at the answers I am getting...I have to give them credit for this and a big round of applause. --Read and Learn..


 
Shadowrock

"It does not have anything to do with what they look like on the outside for me but their inner beauty, personality, the respect they have for others, and the way they carries themselves"

Tony AFX

"Sexy, to me, is a beautiful woman that has confidence in herself and knows what she wants out of life."


Ronn J.

"Sexy to me means Smart, Funny, Confident and Outgoing."


 " J "

"Look in the mirror........ Proof positive!! " 


David L

"Ah woman who looks good keep herself up"


Kevin B

"You"


 Miguel C

"Having compassion for others, understanding, having the love for all life, not being selfish or putting your self before God people, not being judgmental, be truthful.. that's what sexy is."


Roger B.

"Sexy is the shape of a person's body, eyes, lips, legs, etc etc etc.........."


TROY C

"KNOWING THAT THE ONE U ARE DOING IT WITH IS THE ONE IN UR HEART."


Darren B

"A woman that turns me on without doing anything."


 MR JAY W....(The Best Kept Secret)

"Sexy has many definitions but my definition is a woman who is soft, not only at the touch but in appearance and demeanor, she carries herself in a way that she doesn't have to talk loud to attract attention, she's elegant in every way."


 Thaum

"YOU are my definition of sexy. Seriously, you are. I am not just saying that."


James W

"Beautiful & charming"


 Suge

"Sexy is a woman who loves being a woman and looking, smelling, and acting as a woman. Must have outmost hygiene. Dress according to the situation a woman who can hold a intellectual conversation on anything happening in the world that's also sexy to me!"


Mark M

"That picture of you in that dress, thickness and your open toed shoes."


Daniel G

"You"


TERRY G(GOD'S PROPERTY):

"Sexy is the way you carry yourself, not the way you look. You can be adorably beautiful on the outside but on the inside, ugly. If you have Christ in your heart, then you have love in your heart. Having love in your heart is more beautiful than looks anytime!"


Robert J

"My definition of sexy is a woman that looks good and knows it, but that is also not stuck on yourself."



 DJ>LOVER

"Sexy is when two people so in love that even when they meet everyday, it's like the first day they met"


ShamusF

"A look, an attitude, how a person carries themselves."


Tyrone K

"Wow Pamela, no one has ever asked me that question...I guess you caught me off guard but of course I will respond. Sexy to me is Funny, intelligent, classy, warm, happy, and positive."



Alex A

"This is a general word, the way you walk could be sexy,your smile,your body could be sexy,but everything you see and make you say wow it is sexy."




 "Her personality."


Love for life

"You, hell look at you sexy"



Jonny H

"Confidence"

 Kilroy, JMP

"At my age, i guess it comes down to a Pizza and a soda....."


Nick B

"You"




La'Vante R

"The way one feel about themselves"
Jason
" That's a wide open, but good question. if what i see, smell, hear, or feel changes my chemistry from whatever it presently is, to amused, aroused, attentive, and hungry? It's sexy. But that starts with composure, cleanliness, inner beauty, then outer. . ."
 DFresh 
"You"
Michael L
 "you"
  
Darrell F
 "Sexy is a completeness how someone carry themselves, attitude, with a mix of sweetness. its not a look or size or a color...."
 ready2bwithu4all
  "YOU"
To: Donald M Jones
  "you!!"
Robert M
"Self Confidence, Self Love and a woman with a mean shoe and clothing game"
Jamie R
"A beautiful personality"
Fernandy D
"Intelligence, the craft of a beautiful mind"
BaLLa2011
  "Style, personality"
 farcas f
 "My definition of sexy? sexy is a woman, a dress, sexy eyes"
Dave W
"Me...."
Carlos G
  "someone who first of all has self-confidence and always feels good about herself."
 
Mike P
"You....."
Dwayne M
"When I look at u I know what it is mmmmmmmmm"
Tha Bossman
"A confident woman who knows her capabilities and knows what she wants and knows how to get it......"
 Astar
"Certain actions, expressions, and sayings of a woman can be very attractive and sexy as hell."
David Benavidez
"My definition of sexy is, what my heart feels that is beautiful to me!!!"

Tywain L
"How a woman carries herself that's sexy too me!"
 King Ken
"a woman's style and attitude......"
Ant Whizzo
"mental intelligence"
Edward W
"To me its about whats in your heart and not what you look like a lady with a good heart is sexy as hell to me she can be big or small and sexy as hell boo because of her heart and that's what I thin"
Robert c
"A woman's looks and how she acts"
 Eric
"The 100% exact kind of woman that you are Rain always & forever. You have the greatest inner beauty Rain, ok?"
Robe zAMORa
"You wearing Red underwear and Smiling at Robe"
Bobhamid N
"Soft, Calm, Cool, Magnetic, Understandable, Flexible, Loving, Caring, Playful, Enjoyable, having a Good Sense of Humor and trustworthy. In my eyes these are the definitions of Sexy !!!!"
 Louie D
"You!"
Rodd J
"u!"
Sketch
"Attractive females!"
KoolRod
"Sexy is in the eyes of the beholder. In your attitude, your confidence, your SWAG. Some would say, having that hour glass figure is sexy. But if she's ugly on the inside no T&A will make up for it. So there's looking sexy and then there's being sexy."
 Farman S
"smart and intelligent"
Alonzo P
"In other words you mami. A woman's brain not her looks or her body."
 Java
"sex with passion"
Louis D
"Eyes to the soul"
To: Kevin P
What is your definition of sexy? by ☂♥Rain♥☂ 4 days ago a woman who can get my heart racing just by walking into the room
David F
"Sexy to me is when two people laugh hysterically at the same time for the same reason then look at each other...wait 1 second and laugh full force again! or when watching a great movie together in the dark , under a cozy blanket holding each other"
jojo
"Like you!!"
Thomas H
"you"
Hennessy
"Self, If one do not know oneself then it don't matter what anyone may say or think... Everyone did not Like the same, or Love the same, so Sexy is in the eyes of the beholder, for them maybe Sexy to one as a smile, the way one holds your hand or just a certain look"
Stewart
'I think sexy is defined by the way one carries themselves."
Robert S
"To me sex is a state of mind! sex starts from the time you wake up in the morning with your partner until the time you and your partner laid back down for the nite the day in the midle should be all day fore play"
PAM: ROBERT, I ASKED SEXY NOT SEX....UGH!
ROBERT: "OHH"

Darnell M
"Inner beauty glow from within that complements the outer well manicured body and personality...ooh,la,la,la!"
Steve R
"YOU"
Willie B
"Sexual Attraction , also its something that makes my nature rise?"
Jonny H
"Confidence."
CONCLUSION:

I grew up in a society where the measure of a sexy woman is by having a fair complexion and an hourglass shape body. Thus as a young woman, I worked so hard to maintain a body to meet everybody's expectation. When I  was younger everybody was telling me that I was beautiful and I was sexy but deep inside me I had this stupid insecurity that I am just an ugly duckling hiding behind a mask.  As I became matured and after a couple of failed relationships, I learned to really look deep inside me and find out I was not living my own life but fulfilling somebody else's dream..I stopped obsessing about trying to be physically perfect..I ate what I want, I dress whatever makes me feel comfortable..I laugh, I dance, I write, I love without giving a damn on what the society dictates and I became who I am today...perfectly imperfect!


The answers I was getting from you my dear gentlemen moved me beyond my expectation, I was so jaded and so caught up with the two bad choices in my past that I sort of categorized ALL men as shallow individuals who only look at the physical side of  the fairer sex, dream, desire and crave "perfect" women who only lives in the fashion & sexy magazines and in the movies while bring home to momma the girl who will bear their children, cook barefoot in the kitchen and be submissive to the KING of the house, while the husband continues to crave, desire and dream about 'em perfect bit.....errrr ladies.


So I will take this opportunity to thank ya'll who answered truthfully and for being real...


In closing am I consolidating what is SEXY through a man's eyes:


" A sexy woman is somebody who is confident about herself. Soft in manners and attitude, strong in faith and love. Sexiness is not only about physical but it's also about intelligence. Somebody who accepts that she is a woman and that she have some limitations. Sexy is somebody who takes care of herself, who smells good, feels good and a happy person who loves life and be herself, A woman who knows what she wants and knows how to get it, a woman who is sexy from the inside out..who can make your heart beat faster just being with you in the same room knowing you breathe the same air..sexy, is a special touch, a certain look and that smile, knowing she got you hooked"


created by: Rain